Eyes wide open

Stare at the black screen and realize how happiness has yet to ensue. I would describe it like getting kicked in the nuts, the gut feeling that makes your stomach turn and presumes you ill. Im not happy and this is not what i wanted, maybe now that i possess this again i realize i am not content with it. Say your goodbyes and walk away from it all, just walk away.

Closure

I could try and write a happy blog about how good life is and how excited i am about this new upcoming semester in college but i as much as myself and me know that this sure as hell wont be happening. If i was omnipotent for a day i try and set things right, i would like to travel back in time and see the different alternate endings to different situations. I would want to know that if i was to die today my nephews and my nieces are going to be okay forever. Im not omnipotent and im not a dreamer so i shouldnt try and daydream things that wont come true, if God is omnipotent and if he does exist... does that mean that he has the power to not care about things and to be evil?

French fries and hamburgers

They can be so salty, they can be so burnt or they could be just right.
Just like men and in some ways a lot like love.
Love... what is love? a hamburger? a fry? or maybe a small vein on a piece of Spam... "there's no veins in spam" says Eagle 2 and i think otherwise.
Some people, just never learn.

When did it get so complicated?

I keep thinking and trying to figure out when did life get so complicated but i still cant find an answer to this question. I think it changed around the time i reached high school but im not certain about that. Before, i just thought things would fall into place and good things would happen and bad things also, so i could learn from those mistakes and thus not commit them again but now i question so many things and i get easily confused over nonsense, it's baffles me as to what i should really focus my time on. I look at people on the street and i think to myself how violence and hate surrounds every place i pass by. The world has become a sad place to live in. If there is a God, he should be really ashamed of what humanity has become. I mean, seriously, what could he be proud of?

Insomnia causes craziness

Tengo tantas pensamientos vagando por mi mente que siento que mi cerebro se ira a huelga proximamente. Es increible como la vida cambia de un segundo a otro. Nada es seguro definitivamente. En muchas ocasiones me encuentro cuestionando tantos aspectos de mi vida los cuales quiero mejorar, pero me doy cuenta que todo pasa por una razon, y que cada persona que llega a mi vida es por una proposito en especifico. Quiero sentir entre mis dedos la conclusion sobre los resultados de la naturaleza de la vida. Lo que debo hacer para mejorar esto que siento.
Miedo, por primera vez tengo temor a confiar en alguien. Esta persona es tan diferente y a la vez tan parecida a mi. No quiero, no debo, no puedo! Debo pensar positivamente y arriesgarme, pero lo he hecho anteriormente y he fallado continuamente. Que hago?! como saber si la decision es la correcta?
Me siento debil, ha logrado penetrar la pared de defensa que me rodea. Quiero que se aleje, no me quiero encari~ar. Ya es muy tarde, tengo que ser fuerte. He pasado por tantas experiencias que ya estoy segura que para mi el amor siempre permanecera como un sentimiento ambiguo, el cual nos hara sufrir pero al fin y al cabo nadie murio por el, solamente por su hermano fraterno; la soledad...

La Secta

Hoy me pierdo en el jardin del cuento que no tiene fin. Mientras uno vienen y otros van el mundo para de girar. Dentro de ti...
Rosas y Espinas; la historia de mi vida
Rosas y Espinas; amor que contamina
Rosas y Espinas; veneno y medicina
Rosas hermosas

La vida nace del dolor, la madre vive por amor. La flor no crece sin el sol, calma mi sed dejando un mal sabor. Dentro de mi...
Rosas y Espinas; la historia de mi vida
Rosas y Espinas; amor que contamina
Rosas y Espinas; veneno y medicina
Rosas hermosas son cosas

Hoy me pierdo en el jardin del cuento que no tiene fin.

Quote...

Neruda dijo "Me gustas cuando callas por que estas como ausente"...
Yo digo "Me gustas cuando callas por que tu voz me irrita"

...Very interesting considering the facts
God it pisses me off to know that ppl have changed all of a sudden with no reason, well excuse maybe but reason no. If somebody broke a friendship, it's bcuz they were never interested in it in the first place. I shouldn't waste my time thinking about it, but i cant deny that it pisses me off to think of the good times, bcuz right now every little moment seems lost, useless and completely irrelevant... i wish i never had to hear ur f-ing name for as long as i live, but i guess the punishment for screwing up so badly is to hear it every single day... i wont let it get to me bcuz i dont care anymore