This is me...now

Feelings changed, completely renewed, i cannot move without looking at the person that made me change it all. The person who gave me a splash of reality, the wisdom to make my reality come true, the closure to stop feeling, the great sense of having fun, the authenticy of giving a crap what people think about me, the reason for leaving, the thought of crazzines, the art of spoiling my imagination. This person gave me the best abstract gifts a human being can possess, yet i sit alone and wonder how can one person amerit all these things, and still accomplish true happiness. I have yet to conquer if true happiness exist, maybe brief moments, but not complete. Thinking as it may, being it all as it is, i sit alone and wonder how its best to consider me dead as well, as the windows blackened, is it better to consider me souless and heartbroken?

crazy hallucination

I find myself changing for a person i hardly know, i look at the other person who i am turning my life upside down for, i can't seem to believe that i have found such a perfect stranger, so different yet the same. Loves to dance, drink have fun. Yesterday i finally had some time to give that person a special evening. This special person had a great time mostly unforgettable!! Its so funny how time plays tricks on us. Time, i hate time!! things happen for reasons not because of time. I just wish that whatever is gonna happen is a good thing, cause this person deserves the best and craves for the rest, i dont know if im in the condition to comply to this person's request but i will give my all to making these dreams come true. It about time i put myself before others!! so im gonna do what my heart tells me to do, im going to follow every instinct. As i look at the person who i am going to give my all, change, dance, drink, have fun i stay in awe with the crazy realization that im looking into a mirror...