i am such a loser

GOD! Why am i so full of shit?? I mean i talk this, i talk about that and i always end up making the same dumb point!!, Friends... ? Blah! how can i be so stupid? either you have friends or you dont, and even though all the crap i talk, i have friends, good friends that luv me and care about me, even if they dont crawl up my butt 24/7, there! thats the truth. Family? BLEH!! i have a family, hey at least i have something, so i should just stop talking the same shit about em and accept my bloodline and luv it cause i cant exactly change it can i?! College, my dream job, my future?? BLAH BLAH triple double shit!! Can i just cut the crap already and just decide to be considerate, patient and accept reality as it is?? Uff i am sick and tired of being this double time loser, hard ass loner dramaqueen...? can i stop being this? i can even fit in my own skin or make a decision without questioning myself... The point: i am dumb and i suck for being so stupid, judgemental, condescending and pedantic, so this will just put the bow and final ending to all the crap i am full of!